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So tonight I was driving home, and I was thinking.

Lately I’ve been dealing with a lot of insecurity with the fact that I am single. My singleness was a struggle in high school and early on in college, but over the past few years, God really enabled my heart to stay content in that area. However, this “new” post-grad season of life has brought that struggle back to my heart and mind. As I was driving, I was telling the Lord how I felt like I just wasn’t enough. I felt like the reason I was so, so single was because I wasn’t virtuous enough, responsible enough, “grown up” enough, and patient enough for a Godly relationship.

Then the Holy Spirit reminded me that I was right. I am not enough. In all aspects of my life, I am not enough. I will never be able to measure up, and that’s the beauty of the gospel. God reminded me that I am nothing without Him. I was lost. I was dead in my sin. I was full of lack, and had fallen so short of God’s perfect standard. I was stained with sin, but Jesus took my place. He bridged the gap between the Father and I by living a perfect life and taking my place on the cross. And the cross is enough.

So, I am grateful that God does not call me to muster up enough strength to live the life that He has called me to. I am completely reliant upon Jesus to live His life through me. I am also thankful that God has reminded me, yet again, to seek Him and not worry about trying to be “good enough” for a relationship, because that is a lie from the enemy.

In all aspects of my life it is Christ’s perfection that I depend on. And if the Lord sees fit to bring a relationship in my life, it will be because of His goodness, and not because I have earned it. And if He does not He is still good, and He is still enough. He is the greatest love that I will ever know, and He is all-satisfying. It is Jesus who is enough in me, and Jesus who is enough for me.

“Therefore, behold, I will allure her, and bring her into the wilderness and speak tenderly to her. And there I will give her her vineyards and make the Valley of Anchor a door of hope.”

Hosea 2: 14-15

“And I will betroth you to me forever. I will betroth you to me in righteousness and in justice, in steadfast love and in mercy. I will betroth you to me in faithfulness. And you shall know the LORD.”

Hosea 2:19-20

“Each time he said, ‘My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.’ So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.”  

2 Corinthians 12:9